December 29, 2009
December 27, 2009
Yeah, I know, I'm using the same concept as Talita did for her post. Sorry, girl, can't help it :p too cute to be true hehehehe.
December 14, 2009
November 14, 2009
October 14, 2009
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen feeling like there's nothing to figure out
Well, count to ten, take it in
This is life before you know who you're gonna be
September 19, 2009
September 17, 2009
I need you. I need that guy who can make me laugh just by the way he says hello when I pick up the phone. The guy who makes my hands shake when I'm sitting next to him. And the guy who isn't afraid to keep hugging me when I'm not ready to let go yet.
I don't have the heart to hurt you, that's the last thing I want to do, but I don't have the heart to love you.... not the way you want me to.
He waits for her to understand, but she wont understand at all, she waits all night for him to call, but he wont call anymore, he wait to hear her say "forgive," but she just drops her pearl black eyes, and prays to hear him say "I love you," but he won't tell her no more lies he waits for her to sympathize, but she wont sympathize at all, she waits all night to feel his kiss, but always wakes alone, he waits to hear her say "forget," but she just hangs her head in pain, and prays to hear him say "no more, I'll never leave again," How did we get this far apart? I thought this love would last forever.
I remember the day that you asked me to let you go. You were slowly walking away and I asked "wasn't my love good enough?" then you turned around and said, "No.... it was too much”.
I said I didn't cry much when you went away. I told you I can move on and I will be okay. I said I was happy when you found someone new. The sad thing is you believed me even if I didn't want you to.
You didn't intentionally break my heart; you even said you were sorry. But I cried anyway… I know the truth that you're too scared to admit, you're with her, but when you look at me, you can't remember her name.
You grab her hand as I walk by; our glance becomes a stare. The tension that remains with us is more than I can bear. You cannot keep pretending that I mean nothing to you, because I see it in your eyes. And only eyes are true.
If I should die tonight, and the reason remain unknown, tell not to the whole world, but to the one I love that I died of a broken heart. Not because he loved me too little, but because I loved him too much.
Sometimes I think life would be easier without all these feelings that make living so complicated. There would be no hate, no anger, no jealousy, no fear. But there would also be no love, no joy, no hope, and let me repeat, no love. That's the kicker you see. A life without love is an endless monotony.
You love somebody and then you don’t love them anymore. But if you really love somebody, you always love them, don’t you? Isn't there always some small part of you that still reads their horoscope in the paper every day?
When I asked you to kill me, I never expected this. Here I lay, once a joyous and happy soul, now only an empty nothing that once was but never will be again. You murdered me in the worst possible way: a broken heart.
It has to be hard to watch someone you love change before your very eyes and know you can't do anything about it, but it must be heartbreaking to remember the way they once were.
Love is like an eclipse; if you wait for it long enough, it's bound to happen.... but you have to wonder if it's worth it, because it just leaves you in the dark!
People always say to follow your heart but what they don't tell you…. is that, just because you follow your heart, it doesn't mean there'll be a happy ending.
When I see you two together, my heart breaks in half. Not because I hate her, and not because she doesn't deserve you. It's not because I still love you. It's because I always told you that you deserve the best, and now I'm afraid that you've found it.
Falling in love is like setting yourself on fire hoping not to get burned.
Have you ever fallen in love, but knew they did not care? Have you ever felt like crying, but knew you'd get nowhere? Have you ever watched them walk away, not wanting them to go? And whispered 'I love you' softly, not wanting them to know? You cried all night in misery and almost went insane. There's nothing in this world that causes so much pain.
It hurts to see someone you love ignoring you, it also hurts to see that he doesn't feel your love. But it hurts even more to know that he loves you too, and just doesn't want you to know.
I want you to hate me as much as I loved you.
Look around you, hearts change; I know they do.
When you become the victim of a hateful heart, trust your soul and walk away.
It's amazing how much somebody can break your heart and still you love them with every broken piece of it.
Ever notice that the people who hurt you the most are the ones you tend to love more?
You called me up and we talked about the person you love and how perfect she is and there was silence. I was trying to stop my tears from breaking as I uttered the most difficult reply I've ever made.... I'm happy for you.
I wish I was a little kid again, scraped knees are easier to fix than broken hearts.
The only thing that hurts more than a broken heart is knowing, if you had the choice to do it all over again, you would.
When I was with you everything was perfect, I would forget every trouble and problem... I'd even forget to breathe. Now you're gone and every trouble and problem seems bigger than the world. I hate it without you... I hate remembering to breathe.
I don’t understand why I like you. I know I can’t have you, but I still want you. I know that you’ll never want me the way I want you. But I just keep dreaming, knowing that I can’t have you and it hurts but I continue dreaming, and so does the pain.
There's someone else I'm finally thinking of. Someone else's smile is taking over my heart. I'm trying so hard not to let you know that I still am trying to let go. I'll be damned if I let you know.... that I still find it hard to sleep at night. Someone else is making me smile but that doesn't mean I haven't stopped crying for you.
taken from here.
well, umm, maybe it sounds too much (I EVEN google a broken-heart-quotation website! Gawd.).......... but, this is how I feel.
August 24, 2009
Online all the time: Youth & New Media. The impact of social networking and the online world on Indonesian culture
To be honest, I’m one of them too. After school, I sit in front of my laptop and directly sign-in to Windows Live Messenger and reply some walls on Facebook. I’m addicted to this. To this kind of urban habit.
Maybe, our parents give us this internet facility to accommodate our study needs. Such as, looking for some meanings in Google, or exchange information one to another. But, most of the time, we use it for our virtual social life.
For me, those social-networking websites are good ideas to expand knowledge and intercommunication with others. Like, you meet someone from England on Omegle. Talking about their culture, the way they interact to each other, their favorite hang-out sites, etc.
From the internet, we can see lots of people wearing some open clothes. These days, Indonesian people act like them. Like, posting some bikini-moment in their accounts. If we see from Eastern culture point of view, this kind of habit is inappropriate. Indonesian culture is mostly about traditional ways of clothing. Which is mean all over your body is closed.
So, there were lots of things we could get from the internet. And of course, there are some impacts too to the Indonesian culture. So, there is a question. Are we gonna trapped in this point of view forever? Let’s be creative to show our Indonesian culture bravely, show your potentials to the world! Cause we are Indonesian, we are youth, and this is our conference.
August 17, 2009
Uh, I've been absent for some days hehe. Uh, I was thinking that my blog isn't popular enough, so what should I do to make it better? I mean, to catch more visitors? Haha.
Umm, well, so I guess I should post something worthy. I mean, not just about QU or something like that, I should make it better and show the world my potentials (wtf?). Anyways, let's start.
Black Plain Tee: Giordano
Animal Print Skirt: thrift
Last Sunday, after we finished church-time, we hit Lippo Karawaci. After that, we hit RS Pelni (AGAIN, for me and my mom because on Saturday we were there) to accompany my dad checking his patient(s). And I saw the crews (securities, etc) preparing for the Upacara 17an.
Oh, and because I am a Paskibra (argh what's the english word, people??), so this is what I wear to the ceremony (anyways I've been let all the stuffs out of my body, it's so damn HOT using these things!)
And after the ceremony, all the Paskibra team went to Gading and I'm NOT going with them ARGGGGGGGGGGGH I wanna I wanna I wanna I wanna gooooo! (me, kak Nita, Queencha, Arsen and Kenny W didn't participate the others).
Ah well. New activities: starting to fitness again and english course at EF! I got level 4 from 16 or something. Long way to go!
Actually, my seniors (the previous <12th,> the 14th year), was watching from the second floor. And I bet one of them record the ceremony. Hope I can get one copy so I can add it here!
Eat your Balenciaga heels, fashion freakos!
August 6, 2009
And I found it. My signature style: messy and simple. I got the messy thingy based on my haircut. You couldn't guess what kind of style is it. Really. It supposed to be bob, actually, but it becomes out of control and I never cut it anymore, like, months? Or even a year already?
Oh, and you should add moody, though. No, really. Today I would wear a flowery skirt with a pair of black kitten heels, tomorrow I would wear black skinny jeans and my brotha's shoes. But, wait, is moody really a signature style?
I always love Sienna Miller&Alexa Chung's style. Simple, unpredictable.
Anyways, I'm not uploading my daily style for some posts........ just simply because I'm so fugin lazy to charge it hehehehe.............. so the battery is empty.
Oh, and my recent activities are school and paskibra. Err, what's the english word for paskibra? Oh, and next week my school will make an event. It's class-meeting. Hope it'll going well.
famileeeeeeey; always there beside me--smooch!
fruendsssssss; you know why!
fah-sey-onnnnn; what should I say?
shaw-pink spree!!; a girl just wanna have fun, babes, indeed?
YUMMEH FOO-DTS!; damn, this is sooooooooooooooooooooo good
Ein-tern-et; facebook, twitter, blog, everything!
So.... this is my list. And yours? If you made one, please tell me--I wanna know, bitches ;) Tagged to: EVERYONE.
All pictures (except my own&the Phillip Lim's) are taken from Google. Seeing the spag-height-ty make me hungreeeeeeh. So sorry if I made some new words (okay, not definetely new words), I just kinda bowl-ring and need some 'make-something-new-stupid-beachey' :p
Oh oh, and I just found something new (again)!! For Circus! new tagline. What's the you-think-it's-a-brilliant-idea-even-it's-so-not idea, you ask? You gonna see! *wink wink*
August 3, 2009
Anyways, so sorry to my dearest beachey, Talita, I just lost my mood darling. Hope you don't mind. Maybe I'll post your tag later.
Freaking out. Blah.
July 23, 2009
I want make my parents proud of me, by entering IPA (Ilmu Pengetahuan Alam/Science) next year.
I did a lot of things, make them mad and upset at me. I wouldn't make it happen again now, just like a quote:
“It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.”
“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”
“To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.”
“I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do...I'm sorry I can't help myself, I'm in love with you.”
“If you wait to do everything until you're sure it's right, you'll probably never do much of anything.”
“Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.”
July 18, 2009
July 14, 2009
Not posting something for days make me miss you.
I've been 2 days in my new school. For real, I miss Tarakanita 4 so bad. I don't know, that place seem so 'homey'. Maybe I'll love DB too, but, for now, I feel ordinary. Hey, I just about 48 hours there! Need more adaptation session.
Well, not much to tell ya. I've done MOS (Masa Orientasi Siswa/Students Orientation Time), and officially a student of Don Bosco II.
I'm starting to learn tomorrow, hope I can through it well.
Dumbass, I miss someone so bad. It's just days (or already weeks?) I'm not talking to him. He's a real funny but so fucking annoying guy, I love to hang with. No, I won't take this as crush, I'm get over him. You could say I have no feeling about him right now, but yeah, I miss him. Kind of. Keep pretending I don't need him but the real fact I am. Fuck off.
I have a lot of stories to tell him. About holidays, about my new school, new friends, new seniors, even my new laptop hehehehehe.
I was nudge him on MSN days ago, but no respond. Maybe he doesn't accept my nudge? Or he won't to talk to me?
Ha. Possibly the second option.
Anyway, I've got my new laptop. The brand isn't poop-ular enough, yeah. It's A*Note. But, if you compare with some other laptops with the same specs, this laptop I bought is cheaper. It's pearl white. Hey, brands can't guarantee us right?
I'm on Tumblr browsing........ Thinking about to make one. What do you think? I already have some acconts, should I add one more? Kinda complicated to manage them, actually. The most active site for now are Facebook, Twitter, and Blogger. My account in some more social networking based website are not as active as them.
Anyways, gotta hit the bed. School-time tomorrrrrrow!
P.S. I'm not installing Adobe yet, so I'm not adding a sign for this post.
July 10, 2009
Sling Bag: Louis Fontaine
Small Bangles: unbranded, Bali
High Gladiator: unbranded, Bali
I already watch Hannah Montana. The film is great and funny. And yeah, Lucas Till is just lovable. I love the clothes, especially the shoes that Hannah & Tyra Banks fight for.
Not Too Rotten
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